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03:17pm 08/01/2012
 
 
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Wow,

I have not written in this in years. I don't know what is so special about today that I am finally able to sit down and write in here again. Maybe I just needed some place to go and write down my thoughts, stream of conscience, to just be able to write again. I stopped for a while mostly because I have the bad habit of doing something for so long that I grow weary of it. I used to have such a love for writing but somehow it lost all of its fun for me. I wanted to start up again even if it's just in here as a form of blogging ( I don't know if livejournal is considered a blog) so that I could have a place to organize my thoughts. Even if no one reads this it's nice to put it out there.

Today was a good day! I went out to a new brunch place with a very dear old friend of mine and we got to reminisce about old times. Although where we went I don't know if I would go back there. It was quite a wait for expensive food and they messed up my order lol. It always happens to me somehow but at least the Turkey Hash was yummy! After brunch we decided to walk past our old High School which since we graduated 9 years ago has been redone and looks amazing! We were able to walk around the athletic fields and peer through some of the windows of the classrooms ( don't worry school was not in session lol). The facilities were amazing and made me wish that it had been that nice when we were there lol but alas that is never how the story goes!  My friend then decided she was going to try and jump over some of the hurdles since she was a track star back in the day! I got an amazing video which I'm not sure if I am tech savy enough to upload here lol. Next time I will have to go back and try to get into the main part of the school.

I guess the next part of this should be to update on my life since I last posted? Since graduating college in 2007 I have steadily worked in retail which is not great but at least I am almost done paying off my loans!!! I am super happy about that. Next will be to decide my next step. I have worked cosmetics for about four years now and day to day is different but for the most part I enjoy it. Retail is hard but I truly do enjoy working with people and making them feel good about themselves. Makeup seems to always give people a pick me up as well. I have also dabbled in doing the makeup for friends films which I have no training in but is really fun! I even tried to build a kit and do special fx stuff but realized its a big investment when you are not actually getting paid lol. I have also  taken writing courses here and there and taken some graphic novel writing classes which was challenging but fun at the same time. I am going to be taking another course starting this week so we will see where that goes! 

That is my life since last posting lol which doesn't seem like much but actually I feel a lot better after writing it all out. We will have to see if I can be more committed to writing in here lol. New years resolution? 
mood: hopefulhopeful
 
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12:12pm 04/03/2006
 
 
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You Are From the Moon



You can vibe with the steady rhythms of the Moon.
You're in touch with your emotions and intuition.
You possess a great, unmatched imagination - and an infinite memory.
Ultra-sensitive, you feel at home anywhere (or with anyone).
A total healer, you light the way in the dark for many.


 
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04:26pm 27/12/2005
 
 
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I just love being home and getting sick on break :(
 
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06:11pm 18/11/2005
 
 
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Man I can't wait unitl break is here. School is killing me right now and I am slowly hating classes even more. Well at least I quit my job so I can try and pick the grades up some more, we will see. I just wish that I could be good at something for once.

I have totally screwed myself over big time. I have two papers due monday and am wicked nervous about it. I think I will be a geek and do one of them tonight so I won't be hating myself later. I might actually go to bed early to make up for the no hours of sleep I have gotten this week.

I am so excited about Harry Potter and the wonderful Goblet of fire coming out!!! So-so saw it already but I think I am going to go with her and D this coming Wednesday so that I can enjoy it with fellow hp freaks. No one here likes hp so I had to run into my room and celebrate last night, oh well!

Tuesday, you can't get here soon enough...
mood: rushedrushed
music: mad world
 
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01:53am 17/10/2005
 
 
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Oh man, I am so nervous about going to my British Poets class tomorrow. I already know I failed the midterm I am just afraid of it really sinking in and getting the actual results in my hands. Never second-guess yourself. I am just so mad that my teacher may think that I don't do my work now because I messed this up. I do do my work and I talk in ever class practically. I hate school, it makes me sad. Oh well here is to another week of disappointment.
mood: nervousnervous
 
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07:14pm 14/10/2005
 
 
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ok well the past night has sucked completely. I had to write a paper for my Critical Theory class which did not end up being as bad as I thought but of course I always say that and get a crappy grade. I was close to being 9 pages so I was pretty proud, I did not think that I would have that much to say.

On the downside of things, I screwed myself over by focusing more on my paper than on my midterm for British Romantic Poets. I had written everything that I needed to say on my essays for the midterm and then went back to reread them and then I second-guessed myself by changing the authors names!!! I am so screwed and I hate myself!!!! Oh well there is nothing I can do about it now so I will just have to get over it.

I am going to try and enjoy my weekend but grrr I have to work tomorrow and I have craploads of reading to do....this should be a great one. Is it Thanksgivng yet?!
mood: stressed alreadystressed already
 
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03:06pm 13/10/2005
 
 
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I have not writen in here in sooooo friggin long. I guess it is time to start it up again lol not that anyone actually reads this but hey thats ok, I need some place to go type.

Well I am back here at school in my junior year ahhhh!!!! I can't believe it. As corny as it sounds I actually do remember my freshman year like it was yesterday. I don't want to be graduating any time soon because I am not ready to face the big bad world lol. I have no idea what I want to do with my life.

Whenever people ask me what my major is and I say English they are like wow what are u going to do with that? I don't know lol. I know that I want to write but I realize that that will get me nowhere. I need to have something else to do as well but I don't know what that will be but I have to find something. The next question they ask is why don't you go into teaching? I Just don't want to teach. It does not appeal to me and that is that. Grrrrrrrr....hopefully something will come to me before I graduate. I realize that I may be acting a little dramatic because I still have to finish this year before I go into my senior year but everything has gone by so fast that who knows how time will fly?

Last thursday I left to go home for a short break and classes started up again yesterday. I love being home and everything was just so great...I really did not want to be coming back though. I have a bad habit of looking too far ahead and not enjoying the now so the whole time I was home I was just upset about having to leave and even more upset on tuesday when I drove back. I miss everything and everyone...especially my baby!! Oh well I have thanksgiving to look forward to.

I got myself a little job at Brooks pharmacy up the road. Everyone is really nice so it is not that bad. I know its not great but stupid Barnes and Noble said that they were not looking for booksellers only cafe people, oh well. I am kind of bummed because I have not been able to just stick with one company because people are not looking for seasonal help. I had such a fun time working for Barnes and Noble this summer but they had some stupid rule about having to work for the company for 9 months before you can transfer, so I was not able to transfer at all. Once again I had to start anew. I don't really want to stay with brooks either but I guess I will just have to for the time being. My school finally got facebook so I have become addicted so anyone friend me lol. Oh well time to go write a paper :(
 
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02:34pm 09/06/2005
 
 
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I'll teach myself not to care. I'll teach myself to become essentially numb to anything. Whats the point in investing your emotions when all u do is get hurt. Caring is anybody's biggest downfall. Get rid of that and feelings and you will be all set for life. That is why I silently scream so no one knows how I really feel.
 
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02:38am 19/05/2005
 
 
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Wtf?! Not this shit again.
 
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02:46pm 14/05/2005
 
 
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Wooohooo!!!!! Home for the summer! I am to lazy to unpack all of my shit but I got to do it soon in case people come to visit me uhhhmmmm *cough* Andrea and Megs!!! So excited that I am loved!

Can't wait to relax and start the endless pile of books I picked out....I know that sounds mad geeky but I love reading and I especially can't wait to Harry Potter and The Half Blood Prince to arrive in the mail!!! Ahhhhhh!!! So many things to do this summer.

Kinda sad I won't be able to see my Lauren like at all :( but u are going to have fun in Europe I Know. I am excited to be hanging out with my liz because I saw her once last summer so we will definately have to make up for that now! I really wish that Barnes and Noble would call me back and let me know or else I am going to have to start looking other places...and I really wanted to work there too. Ugh allergies are starting to act up and I knew this was going to happen because they are always delayed when I am in VT but when I come home is when they are in full swing.

So excited because tonight I have a mystery date and can't wait to find out where I am going! I need to get on schedule and start my plan like I did last summer but tonight I am going to pig out for one last hurrah!! Oh well, it is time to go get my nails done with my mom hahah.

~Peace~
mood: crazycrazy
music: Ivy
 
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